Mon, Jun 13, 2011 at 2:28 PM
never was a friend their, never was a parent their, never was I their. Dear Nicki can you please help me over come the obstacles when words and actions fail your smile is all i need to come back to to the place where i once was.
they told me i would fail, they made fun of the way i walked and looked, they made fun of my sexual orientation because i didn't fit in. Nicki never was a friend or a parent their, never did their words help me out when i felt the most weak when i wanted to give up, when i wanted to not even live. Not once did they ask how i felt not once did they ask why i was crying, not once did they ask how i was. Dear Nicki never did they understand that the only thing i wanted to do is fit in, never did i want to be hated or dislike, never did i tell them to get in my face because in my eyes i felt i was a weak individual. Did they hear me out? NO! Did they pay attention? NO! Did they helped me out? NO! never did they worried about what was hurting or what was happening it was always ME alone in an isolated world where no one really understand what i was looking for... LOVE, & CARE, never did i ask for more but why was i so greedy to just want that? Why if it didn't cost one dime in the world did NO ONE want to share or give? Dear Nicki your words, poise, wisdom, talent, courage, intelligence, independence, and much saved me... Dear Nicki when you said "i understand" without knowing who we where was all i needed those two words "i understand" broke me down, those two words change the perspective of what i was looking for those two words change who actually gave a fuck + more. Dear Nicki thank you for changing my views on life for changing what my motivation in life was for, for making me realize that dreams are hard to chase but once you achieve you succeed. Thank you Dear Nicki for teaching me that i will always have to believe in myself for others to do the same. Thank you Dear Nicki to opening my eyes and showing me that not everyone is going to love what i do or say but when im doing what i love is more than what meets the eye but what meets you. Dear Nicki you told me to never let them see me cry, to never show them that your weak when you feel defeated, to show that you have conquered instead of being defeated. Dear Nicki thank you for showing me right from wrong and for showing me that without TRUTH life is LIES. Dear Nicki thank you for showing me that if im confident no one can defeat what i say or do, because im bigger than the next BITCH. Nicki Dear Nicki you told me to love what you see, perfection takes time & never throw yourself down on the floor and praise anyone but GOD, Dear Nicki thank you for telling me im beautiful when the rest of the world said the opposite, Dear Nicki thank you for telling me that I'm a BARBIE because that made me feel unique and outta the box. Thank you for making think outside what other people think i will do, thank you Dear Nicki for teaching me that im BOSSED UP no matter what the rest of the world might think of my opinion.
You reading this everyone has a role model everyone has to be strong, YOU are an amazing human being you were a gift sent from heaven you are a person that can break boundaries and YOU are beautiful. Never let them see you defeated always let them see you smile. Smile & Walk like you own the world because YOU ARE SPECIAL.