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Sun, Jul 31, 2011 at 4:57 PM

Nicki Minaj's Advice Saved My Life

I suffered from mild Major Depressive Disorder from 2008 to June 2010. There were 4 middle aged women in my church who made my life a living hell during the year of 2007. These 4 women tried to get the other choir members to hate me,they spread rumors about me,and tried to get 1 of my bffs to join their clique.
In December 2007 these 4 middle aged women lied on me to the pastor and the pastor took their sides just because they're older and have been members of this church longer.
The pastor kicked me out the church for 2 weeks.He told me I couldn't come back without a letter from my psychologist.As a result I came down with depression.
After the former pastor kicked me out the church I wanted to commit suicide so I checked myself into the local hospital the next day and they held me for 9 hours.
I attempted suicide in spring of 2008.I overdosed on pills.I passed out but by a miracle I woke up the next day.Its a miracle that I'm still alive. God must have a plan for me.I didn't receive any medical attention.I just sat on the couch watching tv as my body overcame the shock of ingesting those pills.
I finally got better in June 2010.
Early in 2011 one of my coworkers said a very evil thing to me regarding my being a fan of Nicki Minaj. This former coworker was in her late 50s but she behaved as if she was a teenager.
This coworker said to me "You can't be a Nicki Minaj fan. Nicki Minaj has money. You working as a CNA.Nicki Minaj has money.Nicki's hair looks better than yours.Nicki doesn't work as no nurse aide."

I was really crushed by what she said.I'm a huge Nicki Minaj fan and she made out like I committed a crime because of it. I was heartbroken. I'm very sensitive. I thought about suicide because that's just how hurt I was. I was about to overdose on pills or hang myself.
I came across an interview Nicki Minaj did with Honey Magazine on Youtube.com. I watched her interview and Nicki's advice saved my life.
Nicki said "There is no room in life for feeling sorry for yourself." Nicki also said "You have to be strong."
Tears came to my eyes.I put the rope and pills away.
Nicki Minaj's advice saved my life.

4 weeks later I met Nicki MInaj in person at the meet and greet.She was touring with Lil Wayne for his I Am Still Music Tour.I met her and it was a dream come true and a very beautiful experience.
I had the pleasure of meeting Ms.Nicki again on July 8th,2011 during her Femme Fatale Tour with Britney Spears and it was even more beautiful.
This particular coworker found another job and I was happy because she was toxic.All of the coworkers were upset with her because she said mean things about them too.Finally peace came to the atmosphere.
I have been depression free since June 2010 and I thank God.There is a chance of me relapsing but I have been praying and I find happiness with fun activities.

Nicki Minaj changed my life.Her advice saved my life.Her music moves my soul.I look up to Nicki as a heroine because she isn't afraid to stand out from the crowd.I was so ashamed of being unique until Nicki Minaj came along.
I didn't know who Nicki Minaj was.I remember seeing a pic of her and her name flash across my Facebook page early in 2010 but I didn't know who she was so I clicked on the X. In summer of 2010, 1 of my 6 best friends introduced me to Nicki Minaj's music.
I spent a week in Huntsville,Alabama with Sakena,1 of my bffs.She came across some photos of Nicki Minaj on her teenage son's laptop.She told me about Nicki Minaj and her music.Her son is a huge fan of Nicki Minaj.When I returned home I watched Nicki Minaj's videos on Youtube.I came across so many videos.I also read about her upcoming album at the time Pink Friday. I kept the release of her album date in mind. When November 22nd,2010 finally came I raced to the Amazon.com site and ordered my copy of Pink Friday.

Since listening to Nicki Minaj I have changed.Since listening to Nicki Minaj I haven't had any depressive episodes.
Since listening to Nicki Minaj I have worked hard to loose the weight I gained during depression.I work out 5 days a week now and I can only work out if I can listen to Nicki's music.I have all her songs and feauture songs in my Ipod. I purchased all three of her mixtapes and purchased 3 more different copies of her Pink Friday album.
Since listening to Nicki Minaj I haven't cut myself or snip myself with scissors when I get sad or angry.I used to cut myself or snip myself with scissors when I became really angry or sad. I no longer do this since listening to Nicki Minaj.
I know Nicki Minaj wouldn't want me hurting myself so I don't engage in hurting myself anymore.When I get sad or angry I listen to Nicki's music or I go to Youtube and watch her videos/interviews and I feel so much better after that. I also do a visual journal in which I draw or paint how I'm feeling and this is also a great release.
Nicki Minaj changed my life and this is why I look up to her so much and why I love her so much. I also thank Sakena for introducing me to her.Thanks to her son,Sakena was able to tell me who Nicki was.She and I just scrolled thru the pics of Nicki Minaj that her son had on his laptop. I wish I would have known about Nicki Minaj when she first started out in 2007. :( But thanks to ebay I was able to purchase all 3 of her mixtapes and hear her earlier works and I came across some of her old videos and interviews on Youtube.

  1. Top_Linda Kyra Lynne avatar

    On Sun, Jul 31, 2011 at 7:17 PM, Top_Linda Kyra Lynne said:

    Wow. U inspired me cuz I have been battling depression since I was in 4th grade. Every nite to this day I cry about my parents being divoreced. I cry also cuz I feel like a disappointment in my family. I always felt like I didn't deserve to live. I used to attempt to cut myself. I almost tried to kill myself too. But then Lady GaGa saved my life. It may sound stupid cuz I'm only 14 3/4 but it happened. I'm truly sympathetic to ur story. I'm very happy for u.

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