Tue, Jul 2, 2013 at 10:07 AM
I sit and I think about shit like all the time. what do I want? were do I want to be in 5 or 10 years? will I ever find "the one" whatever that is suppose to mean. lately I just have found myself not to be very happy with some of the choices that I have made, out of fear that I am not doing for myself, or for the right reasons. I guess that's normal considering the fact that i'm just a 22 year old trying to figure shit out.....I just feel like time is ticking and my time is running short so I gotta put a move on it. so I sit and ask myself..Is nursing what I really wanna do? am I going to be satisfied with that when I wake up 10 years from now if its lords willing. I know one thing, I refuse to wake up with any regrets. I find myself still trying to please other ppl and in all honestly I hate that feeling...I feel like a sucka and that's not how it is suppose to be. or at least I don't think that's how it's suppose to be. I don't know what is that I want any more...I really don't!!!!!!! but I do know one thing, whatever I choose to do in the few years I know I will be happy, and I will not care what anybody else thinks...I have to start living me for me and doing what Kendrick wants, cause when its all said done that's is going to be ultimate happiness and that's all I want, is to be happy. to me happiness is sense of freedom, it's a freedom that you can't control, it's a freedom that allows a person to do what they want, and live how they want, and be who they want....that's what I want, that's what whoever reading this wants. hell that's what we all should want. ...that piece is the ultimate freedom.