Thu, Nov 28, 2013 at 11:15 PM
I feel that you start to act like how the people around you act. I see now that I made all these new friends and how they act is how I am reflecting on others. I usually am fun loving, but lately I have been in a really pissed off mood so I am showing it and taking my anger out on others. I don't hurt physically, but there are people who are just ignoring me because of how I been acting. I'm not mean, I'm not rude, lately I displayed a demon, a person who doesn't care. I still wanna be the person that people can come to, but recently I haven't wanted anyone to talk to me, because I didn't wanna be bothered. I play it off like I don't care, but inside it hurts me. I don't want to talk to anyone about it, I don't wanna come off as a vulnerable sensitive little person so I put on a cloche to hide my problems. Nobody really knows what sets me off, I don't plan to vent it to anyone either. I am a liar and really everyone goes through things in life but the reason I don't wanna tell is because i know somebody has it ten times worse than me. So I like to hurt and cry to myself because in the end, no one will care, and we all die alone, so really what is the point in telling someone, if they aren't gonna be there later?