Thu, Jul 14, 2011 at 5:13 PM
"if it is to be, it is up to me"
when i was little, i wasn't the type of kid that was in a lot of activities. i wasn.t in any sports, plays, musicals, recitals or anything like that. i lived with my grandma up until i was about seven. best years of my life! i was the A-B honor roll child, little smart girl. however, i never remember saying "when i grow up, i wanna be..." the good grades came effortlessly. when i moved in with my mom i experienced hard times and had to take care of my little brothers. that's another story. anyway my point is, i've never had a talent. now that im almost 17 years old the shit bothers me. it's like something is missing. i don't sing, dance, cheer, ball, run, play instruments or any of that. i haven't found something that i have a passion for. something that i can do for the rest of my life and make a career out of. something that comes natural to me. something that makes me happy and comfortable. as i get older, this terrifies me. yeahh there is stuff that im interested in studying when i get to college but, i haven't found my passion yet. im not even sure how to find it now that im a junior in high school. Nicki Minaj inspires me to keep looking for this hidden talent though, i won't give up. "if it is to be, it is up to me"