Tue, Jun 11, 2013 at 7:36 AM
Each and everyday I talk to one of the barbz, to refrain from saying her name I'm going to call her Amanda. So Amanda Is a barb and hasn't meet Nicki yet neither have I, but with Amanda she has had I guess you can say hard times in her life and things aren't going right with her family ahe says that no one understands how she feels but she isn't listening to what other people have to tell her. It feels like when I tell her things it goes in one ear and out the other. I recently gave up on telling her how she should handle things in her life and how to prevent her from doing the things she does. To make a long story short she cuts herself for attention and honestly I don't understand why. Eye try to tell her that maybe she just need a break from everything to just go and take a walk around the neighborhood but instead of that she decided to run away and hang out side her aunts home. My friend and I try to persuade her to not cry herself and just go home. As time went by I started to believe she was making these things up because they didn't make any sense at all, I talked to her family and they sound like they love her and they don't know what is going on but at the same time not all families are as close as most people want to believe they are.
So after all that I haven't really been talking to Amanda I figure I'll give her some tough love and be a little harsh to her and then........ She started to stop the cutting but I feel she does it again when I don't talk to her. I cannot talk to her everyday it makes me mad to see that all the morals and value her family has raised her with and she chooses to do things like that its really sad. I thought about telling Nicki what was going on but I don't want to bother her. I don't want to worry Nicki when Amanda can handle this on her own. My older sister she use to cut herself but it wasn't as bad as Amanda's is. I hope that some day she realizes that what she is doing is wrong and that she changes her way.
sincerly, A worried barb.