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Sat, May 5, 2012 at 1:55 PM

Broken hearted?

So lately i've been having a problem w. my relationship. My boyfriend keeps putting me off to the side every now and then. It's kinda hurting my feelings. I just don't wanna tell him. If i dot hen he'll assume things and then we will end up in a huge fight. I just want to make sure everything between us is ok. I'm just getting a bit too jealous? Today he's going to his prom. That makes my insecurities a lot worse. I can't just sit around and wait for him to call me. One time we went 3 days in a row without speaking to each other. Those 3 days led me to tears. I don't wanna have to go through that again. All this pain is being bottled up inside me. I haven't told him how i feel about this situation. Is that bad? The main thing is, I have trust issues. I can't just NOT speak to him for a while and pretend like everything is ok with me. I do realize that i put on a smile even when I'm dying inside, but sometimes a girl just has to let it out. Lately i've been letting everything out. It's not my fault though. Ever since i was 3 I've had a habit of bottling everything up. I'm afraid that if i keep doing this, it will take over and destroy me. This past week has been stressful for me. My teachers have been putting the universe on all our shoulders. Of course I'm going to snap. Everyone does eventually. I just don't want to snap on him. He's out having the best time ever, and I'm at home being miserable. I'm afraid his fun might lead him to something else. Maybe it will lead me to being broken hearted. I just can't let that happen AGAIN. :/ But i can't just stand aside while he's out doing as he pleases...

  1. Locqz78 avatar

    On Tue, May 8, 2012 at 6:41 PM, Locqz78 said:

    Glad everything worked out hun!! You're too beautiful to be stressed over anything!!

    Enjoy your summer!!!! :) xoxo

  2. Lellie_Love avatar

    On Mon, May 7, 2012 at 6:43 PM, Lellie_Love said:

    Thanks to the both of you. The thing is, we live in different states. There's a 1 hour time difference, and we can't see each other like others do. I get jealous whenever my friends say they will be going out w. their bf's. i get both frustrated and jealous. I can't have that. My first boyfriend, he chose drugs over me. My second, he was cheating on some other chick w. me. The next, he only went out w. me because he was forced and drunk most of the time. He was embarrassed of me. Now that i'm w. my current, i can trust him, and of course i'm going to get jealous when he talks to his ex's but that's normal. He only talks to them when he's rejecting them. It's difficult for me to look at couples at the movies and not be jealous. I opened up to him about my problem, and he felt completely horrible for making me feel that way. Things are better, and will get much better this summer. We will be spending the entire summer together. Thanks for being concerned about this. :)

  3. Locqz78 avatar

    On Sat, May 5, 2012 at 8:12 PM, Locqz78 said:

    Bottling everything up is not healthy. As a person who used to do it, trust me I know.
    You need to express to him how you are feeling. If you don't he will assume that his actions are ok and he will not make any effort to change. Never be afraid to communicate to your partner, that is how relationships fall apart. If you dont talk about the bad stuff you'll never be able to fully enjoy to the good stuff. If he likes you the way he says he does then he will always make time to speak to you/see you daily. There would never be a day that you wouldnt speak to him. As far as him not taking you to his prom (which is an extremely important event) that seems really shady. Shy or not, if he professes you as his girlfriend he would not be ashamed to show you off at his prom!
    Just tell him how you feel, if the feelings between you both are mutual then you will see a change in him. If not then you know what you need to do!

    Stay beautiful barb! *muah* XOXO

  4. EnRi98(NiCkiFaN) avatar

    On Sat, May 5, 2012 at 2:24 PM, EnRi98(NiCkiFaN) said:

    THERE'S THE PROM AND NOT INVITE U? THAT BAD!! BUT MAYBE IS JUST SHY, MAKE U THE FIRST STEP;D

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