Fri, Jun 15, 2012 at 2:14 PM
Putting myself out there.
Wow. It's been a while since i last logged in. Let's catch up, shall we?
Okay, well the guy i was last with is now my worst enemy. The reason i was having those trust issues, was really because he shouldn't be trusted. He was cheating on me. In fact, it wasn't the first time he's cheated on me. He's cheated on me before. We had been together for 7 months. I honestly think i wasted my time. I always had the feeling in the back of my head that he'd cheated. I was just too blinded to see it. I ended things. When i de-friended him on many social networking sites, i began to see a pattern. He had blocked me from viewing everything on his profiles. Truth was, he had been flirting with many girls. And of course, they flirted back. After i ended the disaster, i began to put myself out there. And thankfully, it worked :). Of course many guys would try getting at me, but only one of them stood out in my eyes. He's sweet, funny, and a true gentleman. We've went on a few dates, and we really liked each other. Things worked out. :) Now I'm glad to say that he and i are official. We date for a month. We understand each other, we have so many un-describable feelings for one another. For once, I'm with a guy who ISN'T ashamed to been seen in public with me. He knows my dreams and goals in life, and he supports me. I know basically everything about him, and I love everything about him. Even though he has many anger issues, i still get passed all that, and I find the guy i care so deeply for. We both adore each other. We enjoy each others company. When we are apart, we both ache from the distance. It's funny though, He lives only about 10 minutes away from me. I've never had such deep feeling for a guy, like i have for him. To be honest, I've never felt this way before. It's as though even in this short time we've spent together, I've fallen for him. And I fell pretty hard. I wouldn't wanna be with anyone else but him. I feel as though i was about to fall off a skyscraper, then here he comes to save me from plummeting into the ground and never seeing the daylight ever again. By just a single gaze into my eyes, i fell for him. So hard that not once since we met has he left my mind. What do i call this? Deep feelings? Love? What is this?