Tue, Aug 16, 2011 at 3:35 PM
What is Team Minaj Anymore?
Sometimes I sit back and wonder what has TM come to? Like I hate to look back when I had my old twitter and say "Oh I miss the old TM." Like...I know the new barbz hate seeing that and all, but I truly do miss it. Honestly, I miss supporting Nicki how I use to in 07-09. I would have my own personal twitter, receiving her tweets to my phone, watching ustreams, but never associating with her "team". I'll admit I did follow SOME TM, but as far as talking to y'all and being on the phone and all that...I just didn't do. It wasn't that there was anything wrong with y'all, I just have never been the type to open up to complete strangers. But the summer of 2010, I decided to talk to y'all. I admit, I met some pretty cool people. But I also met people who strive attention. People who only want the ability to say "I met Nicki. I talked to Nicki on the phone". People who want to feel better than others. No one from Team Minaj, if you met me in person, would ever know that I talked to Nicki on the phone before and she use to follow me for like half of a year. Because I don't brag on it. I mean I cherish those moments, but I will never let my moment make me cocky, or cause me to change the way I act towards the many people I met in TM. At the end of the day, I hate to tell you, but Nicki isn't holding you at night, she's not texting you all day, so never get cocky because you met her or talked to her. Just because you were able to hold her hand and hug her for that brief moment doesn't mean you're better than anyone else in Team Minaj. You just had money that week, sweetie.
I almost want to go back to being A "Big Fan" of Nicki, rather than being Team Minaj. It's like I didn't join a team to constantly be ridiculed. I didn't join a team to see MY FAVE be heartbroken every time she wants to look at her TL. Every single day there's something. You guys never fail to cause some form of drama for the day. Y'all fight and argue like one of you are SERIOUSLY going to hop your cyber-bullying ass on a plane to fight whichever bitch you have an issue with. In the infamous words of BarbieDia "What are you gonna do? Spam me to death? I'm so scared! *laughs*" Some of you get too caught up in Twitter drama. Sweetie...Baby...Honey, it's Twitter. No one is making you follow or meet these people. That was your choice. IdgaFLUCK if ANYONE in TM hates me, dislikes me, tells me to kill myself...because at the end of the day, I will still have the power to click unfollow/block. Just say the word. The words of someone who I met on Twitter do not hurt me. In all honesty, If you don't know me from personal experience, you wouldn't know that every time I walk, I hold my head high. You wouldn't know that in REALITY, you know the thing away from Twitter, I am not phased by anything negative thrown at me. I'm damn near grown, do you REALLY want to know how many people have attempted to break me down? I've came to the conclusion that it's because I have a sweet personality. But even the sweetest girl can play the cards that a nigga deal them; OR bitch because I don't discriminate.
Oh and TM, I have one question....why does it seem like you flock more to the people that cause drama. And I'm not throwing any shade, but like Nicki said about Kim, "It's the guilty ones that get mad.". I see soooo many sweet people in Team Minaj. Soooo many sweet people, yet they get almost NO love. It's like y'all are here for Nicki, but y'all are here for the drama starters, shit talkers and instigaters. Like in reality, could you see yourself literally following...well I won't say following, but could you see yourself being friends with someone who starts major drama, over the internet need I say? Now I can't sit here and say I'm perfect, because I'm not. Sometimes I can be a bitch. I know this. But NEVER will I EVER be that girl who sits behind a computer screen all day arguing with people I'll never meet. I remember when I use to want to meet ALL of you. Now I can count the few I do on one hand, pauz. But it's real. I never thought that one day we'd be so torn. One day you'd have the nerve to say "Nicki told us about people like you." "You depress my timeline.". Lol That only makes me wonder, did Nicki tell you to not like someone because they're real? Because they own up to things they've said even when you want and PRESS them to believe that they're lying about what THEY know came out of their mouths? Lol maybe I got a little personal, but let's be real. Do I depress your TL because I let it be known that not everything in life is butterflies and rainbows? There is an unfollow button. And since that button exist, let me explain the purpose of it. The purpose of that button is so that you do not have to deal with me and vice versa. Now do you understand? The unfollow button is not an insult. It's not saying "I hate you". It's strictly saying "You were once someone I thought I could talk to until you proved me wrong.". I don't unfollow people to insult them in no way, shape or form. I do it to make MY life better. So I can look at my TL and see positive people supporting Onika. But back to the topic, I seriously want to know why you guys seem to follow, kiss up, suck up or whatever to the people who won't give you the time of day? Just a query.
And in conclusion, For everyone that says "Jocie's scared. Jocie this. Jocie that." It's NEVER that. The thing is, I will never ever, ever, EVER meet you in my life. And I'm not singling anyone out or throwing shade. That goes for EVERYONE who decides to walk their happy ass in Jocie's mentions, DM's, texts or calls. If I will never meet you, why would I waste my sweet time arguing with you? You can't get me any further in life, so how are you even a factor? Like it may come off rude, but I'm being serious. I don't do the Twitter beef, arguing, bickering...ANY OF THAT. It's a waste of time and it's only for people who are bored with their lives. Like Nicki said "When people don't hear from me, they think I'm doing nothing. I'm not a slouch." I HONESTLY, on GOD & I NEVER put anything on my Lord and Savior, I promise y'all I have sooo much more to focus on than Twitter and what the HELL Team Minaj's latest gossip is. I'm at school ALL day! And if I'm not at school, I'm writing music. If I'm not writing music, I'm recording music. I'm being featured on this Memphis rapper's mixtape or that Memphis rapper's mixtape. Like this isn't a joke to me. I admit I check up on you guys, but as far as the gossip, I just don't get into that. I don't talk behind people's backs. I've never been that way. I don't have time for it. Literally. I'm trying to graduate high school in May and have a mixtape out by next Fall. I've seen the subtweets. "You try to act like your life is all together now." No I don't. I'm just now beginning to set my future up. My life is far from perfect, but I am blessed. I have so much to be happy for. I've gotten so dedicated to my education and music, all I see is success in my future. I'm able to congratulate my actual music team Bang Mob. We've made it so close to getting discovered we can almost taste it. I can congratulate Flamez, who is in affiliation with Bang Mob, for being on LIL WAYNE'S Sorry 4 The Wait mixtape. Song: Inkredible Remix. I have so much to be happy for. I love you Team Minaj, but like in all honesty I just wish you guys could grasp the true reason of why we're here. It's not to fight, it's not to argue. It's to support Nicki. And I'm not trying to brag on my accomplishments, because I know and have supported MANY talented people in TM. You all should do the same. Instead of constantly tearing each other down, how about lifting each other up and praising one another for their accomplishments. So what is Team Minaj anymore? A group of immature teens and adults, who spend their time cyber-bullying OR Nicki's TEAM, a group of people who actually come together to support her? That's all I have to say, though. Thankx barbz.