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I was utterly in shock. I had fallen in the eyes of such great family members. TM was my life. I'd die for any of these people. I was new to twitter and this whole being 'free' idealistic view of life, & they showed me the way. Because of a simple misunderstanding everyones turned against me. Believe me anyone who lies or hurts Onika Tanya Maraj is a foe to me also, so how could I have lied to her? But thank Allah; maybe I can go somewhere now, Nicki Minaj believed me; my heart says so! I have all the proof she needs. In my heart I felt right, but my mind was set to believe that I had to prove myself to TM. After all that is what family members do for eachother right? Well Nicki Minaj heard my cries and tears she recognized me and she knows I'd do anything for her. Whether it be walking on fire or taking an eighteen hour flight. It's sad; to have so many judgmental people in TM or as some would state 'shady'. I still love them all tho Onika, how can I let it go? I'll never learn, so I think it's best if I say good-bye. My dream was always to encounter you & tell you the love I have for you Nicki, I've done that now, I've had my moment 4 life. I don't want to be wrong in your eyes; people are saying my story for me but Allah heard me, all you have to know is Onika Tanya Maraj a.k.a. Nicki Minaj I live for you I love for you & I would die for you. I also love Young Money and Safaree a.k.a SB too.& I'm just glad you know the truth now. All this time, I have built myself for was to be able to thank you one day all for the love & support in life that you all have given me through music. Just throughout your music I can survive, I hope I can for however long Allah desires. Before I leave now, I have one wish that I hope you can keep; NEVER DROP THE MIC. What I mean is please never stop singing/rapping/and most of all never stop being yourselves. I have learned a whole lot from you guys. & I am what I am today because of you guys. Xoxo Signed: Paki or Syeda.

I LOVE YOU!

YMCMB til the death of me.